tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3421316648540911532.post5927806216064636429..comments2023-08-01T02:00:42.012-07:00Comments on A Year After the Affair: We are at Warshawnthewifehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12655900090203024578noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3421316648540911532.post-91603704097670100662012-06-07T09:34:38.050-07:002012-06-07T09:34:38.050-07:00This comment has been removed by the author.CindyMcNealhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00976180308426526673noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3421316648540911532.post-1300452910924547562012-05-18T07:58:51.317-07:002012-05-18T07:58:51.317-07:00Xena: You give me WAY too much credit! My severe...Xena: You give me WAY too much credit! My severe lack of self-control is why I didn't delete the emails! Those damn digital love letters owned me for months! Richard and my best friend begged me to delete them. We know how that went! Filed away for blog publication. <br />I started a great deal of the communication. Still have most of the emails from the whole first year, from Jaymie, to Jaymie, to Jaymie's dad, from Jaymie's dad, to & from Jaymie's boyfriend...it's ridiculous!<br />Emotional cutting to be sure!<br />Sometimes I wonder if this blog is the medicine that keeps me from emotional cutting. Instead of dwelling, agonizing and torturing myself with the emails, I visit the computer to blog. I still think about the affair, but in a much more rational way. <br />Rational? LOL! First time I've thought about this in anyway as RATIONAL!<br />Hope & Hugs, Shawnshawnthewifehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12655900090203024578noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3421316648540911532.post-22835284092970047732012-05-17T22:51:36.209-07:002012-05-17T22:51:36.209-07:00Ja, I become obsessed with all the chat threads th...Ja, I become obsessed with all the chat threads that I could find on my husbands laptop. I would sit there for hours reading it over and over again. I didn't have the same amount of self-control that you have Shawn, so eventually I decided to delete them all because it become my tool for emotional cutting...<br /><br />But ja hey...sometimes I looked at it and wondered if this was truly the man my husband was or was the truth the man I lived with...I still don't know :-(Xenahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11452097374126696492noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3421316648540911532.post-66767068661801038252012-05-17T12:08:11.065-07:002012-05-17T12:08:11.065-07:00Back then I couldn't see past the pain. Peace...Back then I couldn't see past the pain. Peace? I wasn't even close until a few weeks after I started this blog and found the Healing Heart Support forum. <br />The emails were always a double edged sword, deadly weapons to be sure. I thought I NEEDED them, but they almost ate me alive. I still have them. I don't read them except for use in the blog. They languish in lowest depths of my email files. I could print them and burn them, but it wouldn't matter. They have been burned into my brain like a brand on a steer's ass. You just get used to the scar.<br />Hope & Hugs, Shawnshawnthewifehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12655900090203024578noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3421316648540911532.post-7478512842059136562012-05-17T11:29:57.034-07:002012-05-17T11:29:57.034-07:00The war is a hard place to be. finding some kind ...The war is a hard place to be. finding some kind of peace seems absolutely impossible, doesn't it.<br /><br />You story strikes me because you have all those emails. His betrayal is not only in his actions but those damn emails! Have you burned them yet?Scabshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13738638161899826056noreply@blogger.com