This will be a very quick post. Just needed to try to clear my head. My gradual forward momentum slipped into reverse and I'm panicing. Gotta get some focus!
Yesterday, I went to meet Richard at his office and it felt like I could SMELL Jaymie in there. It's been 18 months!! I hate that she still has power over me like that. Ruined my happy hour time with Richard. In a very passive aggressive manner, which I never approve of, I spent our cocktail hour imparting my wisdom on why he should terminate his partnership with Michelle. She's just a leech. Not worth keeping around.
What do I know? It ain't my job! I should have told Richard the truth, your office is a HUGE trigger! It breaks my heart that I can't just drop by for lunch or to say hi without calling first. Even when I do show up, which is next to never, his staff all hide from me. (Haven't told you about the day I cleared the place out raging and ranting about Richard fucking Jaymie. Scared the crap outta everyone!)
I'm back to looking at Jaymie's Facebook page. Dwelling on how I could make her life suck, too. It's been almost 6 months since I felt so angry and confused. I was hoping by putting my gut feelings on the blog, my attitude would take a turn for the better. Taking up a little bit of cyber space to ease my mind.
Whoa. I gotta get a grip. I will NOT let my emotions get in the way of my better judgement. This too shall pass. If putting my temporary troubles down for the world to read doesn't help, I could add Jaymie's last name to the blog again. Let the world know what that pathetic pee-brain did to me and thus, test out how iron clad that restraining order is. ------Probably not.
Oh, well, there's always vodka. Just kidding....sort of.